Isn't This Supposed To Be Fun?

So I went out with not-boyfriend on Friday night, and he wanted to honk my horn while I was driving just for fun. He also wanted to go write in some wet cement we saw downtown, which I told him "you're too old for that."

I don't know if he noticed or not, but I realized, I'm not fun. Think Squidward or the dad in Finding Nemo. I don't enjoy doing silly useless things like writing in cement or playing in the snow. Come to think about it, the boyfriend I had at age 14 often told me this subtly, and he preferred hanging out with my best friend because she liked playing sports and running around. I was always very resentful of her.

I grew up very fast, and never had time for childish things. I do enjoy dancing, singing and things along those lines, but I find that I'm often trying to relive the childhood I never got to accomplish. I guess board games aren't as much as tackle street football, but I think dancing on bars are a lot more fun than playing in the snow.

When I was at Matthew's place on Wednesday night we did have a tickle fight, which was something I normally would never do. I'm actually not that ticklish but Matthew is very ticklish so I thought it was only fair to play along. I've never been that type of girl, but Matt really likes this kind of silly fun, and I am willing to oblige as much as possible.

Matt also really likes Will Ferrel movies, his favorites being Anchorman and Talledega Nights. I don't really do comedies, my close friends explain this to others by saying... "I don't like to laugh." Even as a kid I remember having a computer, not many toys at all. I think I've been programmed to not like fun.

I know so many guys in relationships with girls and everyone thinks, why is he dating her, she's so boring or she's such a bitch. I hope I don't become that girl... I hope Matthew can deal with me being really boring, or at least can help me be less so. He might be the type of boy I need, someone that will help me have some silly fun once in a while, so I stop growing up so fast. He can be the Spongebob to my Squidward :)